Surprise! Baby number 5?!

What's going through my head...baby number 5! Yep, found out today and no, Denny doesn't know yet. I'm trying to think of the best way to surprise/break it to him! :)

Day 1 (May 4th) of knowing I'm pregnant: Oh my! Yep, this is a surprise. Not that we haven't been talking about it but Denny has been seeking to grow in faith (and also said I had to guarantee a girl) and I have been in faith but with our move coming up soon and then planning home school in the Fall, I have been at peace with waiting. So, God decided to make the decision for us! Trust me when I say there was about a 2% chance of me getting pregnant in April and God used that 2% to make a miracle happen. It makes me laugh to think of God's perfect wisdom, kindness, sovereignty, and sense of humor as He puts "another" life changing event in our year. In our, almost seven years of marriage, things have almost never been dull, and we tend to have big events happen around the same time. So it doesn't surprise me that God would do it this way. Sure, we'd like to feel comfortable, settled in our home, and do it our way but God, once again, wants to show us He's in charge and His plans will prevail! Praise God! He seems to always keep us on our toes! :)

So, yes, I'm excited and fluctuate with questions, and concerns but I'm seeking to rest in God!

Day 2: So, I thought I might be pregnant because, with this being my 5th, I know the signs and I've had that ravishing hunger and the overwhelming fatigue! I was almost hoping I was just so I could explain the desire to eat and why I was so tired. I decided to get a pregnancy test yesterday just to confirm. It was clear in about 30 seconds! So, now I've just been contemplating how to tell Denny--when, how long to wait, should I surprise him for his b-day, at his party, before?...ugh, I don't know if I can keep it a secret for a month and I usually can't hide my belly. Now, don't get me wrong, I know I'm not gaining already but from the moment I'm pregnant, I just stay bloated. I look pregnant early on because of that so sometimes it's hard to hide the pop-out. So, we'll see if I can do it. I think I have an idea of how to surprise him so we'll see how it goes.

I'm feeling tired, hungry and can be very impatient. I'm praying that God will meet me as I seek to care for everyone and have limited time to rest. I remember the first pregnancy and taking naps everyday. Now, I just have to fight the fatigue and keep working. I know God will sustain me.

Day 4: It's so hard to keep this a secret! Last night at our CG ladies meeting it took everything I had not to say something. I'm hoping the wait and timing of the announcement will be perfect. I have the idea but Denny has to approve. I'm feeling good. Yesterday I wasn't as hungry or tired which was great! I hope that continues. I made my appt. for June 2nd so hopefully we'll hear a heartbeat that morning. I still can't believe this. I have no idea how I'll get to all my appts. with these boys. I definitely won't be going as often!

Day 9: I'm delayed on posting but, the big news is I broke down and surprised/told Denny. I wanted to wait two more weeks but it's hard being the only one who knows your pregnant. I needed to explain my crazy eating habits, overwhelming fatigue, and my belly that already looks 3 months pregnant. I'm serious, it's insane! I'm just really bloated but I just stay out there and now almost nothing fits. I'm one month and almost no pants fit, ugh! I just put a bunch of bigger sizes in storage so Denny will have to go dig them out for me.

Well, I have to say I'm amazed by God's grace and kindness in working in Denny. He responded so well! I didn't know what to expect. So this is what I did...his 40th b-day is coming up and we're having a trivia game of personal questions so I put in the list the question, "When is Denny's 5th child due?" So, we set down for a late dinner the other night, kids were down, and I gave him the questions to proofread. So I'm just waiting for him to get to question #8. I see his eyes get real big and then his hands cover his face, and he's shocked but smiling and then just says, "thank you Lord." We talked about how crazy and difficult the due date is and just pray the Lord will work it out to be a later delivery vs. early (like my last three). Denny will have a crazy December at work and then has to travel the 2nd week of January when the baby's due so we'll just pray! Also, as if our holidays aren't busy/crazy enough and with all the b-days--we will have our family b-days in Sept, Oct, Nov, Dec, and possibly January, and then February! No Summer babies for us.

Denny was very calm, thankful, and seemed full of faith! How grateful I am for my hubby who daily seeks the Lord and rests in His truths. The fruit of his devotion is very evident! We trust in a sovereign, good, perfectly wise, and all-loving God so we don't doubt this plan is perfect and good for us. I'm thankful that those truths are in us to sustain us when we are shocked and could be anxious. So grateful that God brought Denny to this place--because six months ago he didn't want any more kids but continued to pray because he knew I desired one more. He prayed that God would give him faith if it was His will and I see the Lord has clearly answered that. AMAZING!

So, we will plan to surprise everyone else with the news at the b-day bash with the trivia questions.

I've been feeling a little queasy today. I find that I'm hungry but nothing sounds good and I'm thirsty but can't figure out what I want to drink because nothing tastes or sounds good either. I've had a bad headache today, probably from the lack of caffeine and I'm so tired!

Day ?--I'm not even sure how many days I am now--7 weeks I believe...but I'm feeling pretty good. Tired, emotional, but not so hungry these days...I really haven't had those strong hunger pangs the past few weeks. It's more now trying to figure out what sounds good to eat. The boys have been so challenging lately and so that coupled with extreme fatigue, my hormonal changes and normal sin issues--they don't mix too well. I can become very overwhelmed with things so I just keep praying, crying out to the Lord, knowing He promises not to give me more that I can handle! Denny is still doing well with the reality of it. With our upcoming closing on our new home, trying to sell/rent this one, his work being crazy, planning our move, me being pregnant, and lots more going on, it can be a lot but I'm so thankful he is seeking to trust and rest in the Lord!

One week until the first Dr.'s appt! Hope to hear a heartbeat!